Here I come!

I'm excited to finally be getting away from this mess. After daily job searches and monotony, I have decided to take a break and head to California. I booked a flight to San Fran for 3 weeks from now and will hit the town with my sister. Its bee a long time since I have left (gone anywhere for that matter) and am excited to make some memories. I feel my camera, and my free spirit have been ignored lately. My hope is this will give me some relaxation, and stimulate me to get motivated again to job search. I am really discouraged, and at the same time, majorly stressed out. I've been working in my parents yard cleaning it, and it has actually helped me destress a lot! It feels good to just work, and see progress, and be outside breathing the fresh spring air. Since it is almost done, I figured San Fran was the next best thing!

As for the diet, I have totally shocked myself and stuck with it. Today is day 16 of the regimen and i am feeling still great! I miss relaxing outside in this gorgeous weather with a glass of wine, but honestly, i am just as content with water too. I feel i've moved past that desire to have a cocktail at gatherings, and dont think about it. But, i have the urge to do a date night and just have a good dinner, but not yet. I think the 11th of April is when I'll end the diet, and begin portion control. I've figured out my portions is my problem, and hopefully, i can manage it better in the future.

John and i went to see The Last House on the Left on Saturday and we both left deeply disturbed. It was very suspenceful and it was a really good story, but holy CHRIST! It was so gory (a really well done job at it too) but it also had sexual violence which i have very little tolerance for. And it was very graphic, so i couldnt watch it and felt like i wanted to cry. I hate sexual violence in movies, and it totally makes me sad. Especially because it is an American thing. European and foreign movies do not emphasise sexual violence, so i dont understand why American movies do. It really makes me sick, and I acknowledge it is shock value, but yuck. I get what's about to happen, so why go into such detail? Ick.